i actually find out something new about you every single day. and ever day you become more and more of a fucking wanker. seriously. i don't know how you can do that to someone, how you can just do something like that without even caring about what the other person is going to go through when he/she finds out. you are such a selfish fucker, words cannot describe! it's like one of them things that has happened to a friend of a friend of a friend that you get told about and you feel really sorry for them and then when it happens to you, you have no fucking idea what to do. i don't want people to feel sorry for me though. i just want everyone to think i am okay because i want to hide all my horrible feelings i have towards you because i am sick of myself moaning about you to everyone, but unfourtunately everyone seems to be able to read me like a book and my plan of hiding away doesn't seem to be working anymore. i just want everything to go away. i don't want things back to normal anymore, i just want you to dissapear off the planet. i don't know why i keep saying that though because it is obviously not going to fucking happen. i don't actually know what i want anymore. i don't know what to do. everything is becoming so repeatative and boring and i'm sick of crying over you because you really aren't worth any of my tears. i can truely say i hate you. i hate everyone. i hate everything.