i miss you. i miss us. i miss what we had. i miss everything. i cannot believe how many times i have said this in the past week but i don't think anyone understands how much i want everything to be back to normal. i just want my best friend back. i feel like i don't know you anymore. it's horrible. i would love to be able to just pick up the phone and not be scared to call you but at the moment i just feel like if i do phone you or text you or try and speak to you on msn or facebook or whatever, you will just either hang up or ignore me. feeling like this is so horrible, everything is really really getting to me, i am sick of having sleepless nights because i can't stop crying. i have never felt like this. i don't want this anymore. i don't know what to do.