hi i'm not in a nice mood. again. today was weird, it was really hard. i don't think i can handle it anymore. seriously. i know that may sound dramatic but we were so close i really really don't want to lose my best friend! i feel like my world is crumbling apart oh my god :''''( i hate how i sit in bed crying till about 2 in the morning then wake up again at 5 and have huge bags under my eyes. fucking hell. on a brighter note, although i don't feel like celebrating anymore, at all. it is my birthday in 15 days.